Thursday, December 28, 2017
I can't say I've had a dramatic change in my appearance in 2017. Although, I did try to keep in shape for my daughter's wedding!
I have learned much about redoing and reshaping. Focusing on one word does that. Transformation.
Mostly, I've finally accepted the fact that I can't change others. Only me. I could spend another year concentrating on transformation. It's a loaded word. As I look back on my journal, there has been change.
C.S. Lewis once said..."isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different."
Keeping a journal helps me see there has been progress. Great progress.
April 1 ...It's a beautiful spring day. Beautiful. A new month. A transformation time. I'm still learning things are not at all perfect, and I can't control any of it. But, alas there is good. My short story releases April 4. I can't quite wrap my brain around that. It's a crazy thing. I love to write, and yet I'm still pretty scared to do it..
I'm still scared. Weird, but I am.
I've been spending some time looking back so I know how best to move forward. I'm turning 50 soon. Knowing another birthday is just around the bend makes me look at where I've been and where I want to be. I've got some pretty crazy goals for the next 3, 10, 20 and 30 years. Its been a great lesson in dreaming.
"I don't know where I'm going, but I sure know where I've been...and I've made up my mind. I ain't wasting no more time."
-Whitesnake. (The 80s were the best!)
I'll never get it right. Life doesn't work that way. I'm grateful for being able to look in the rear view mirror and say I'm better off this year because I took the time to focus on my one word. Transformation.
What's my word for 2018?
2018. Here we go.